Sunny is Great

OH MY GOSH

i am really really really really nervous

i cannot FOCUS at all

i am shaking my legs like a madman (although i always kind of do)

i doing nothing, unable to stick with anything

i am regretting like crazy

i am making a speech to myself

i am not able to digest my food (i think..or maybe i just ate too much)

why?

why am i showing these losing-my-mind symptoms???

welllllll it’s because of the chair tryout for MUN

hahahahahahaha

i did a really BAD job… i was supposed to make a speech under pressure, but for some reason i didn’t feel the pressure until 10seconds before the actual speech

and for some reason i was feeling much time constraint during the speech

which resulted in a disastrous 15second (hope it was longer) speech, more of a comment

i cannot believe myself for doing that………for some reason,,,i don’t know why but when i saw the unexpected Mr. Aitken i couldn’t ummm operate well

anyhow….my hopes are high and low because this is pretty much a BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG deal to me, but low at the same time since i messed up…….

i am going to be a senior next yr, so….if i don’t get the officer this yr i will NEVER get it………….and that will drive me crazy. Seriously, to me MUN is like my brother.. i hate and love it, and it is a substantial part of my LIFE. i hate it when it stresses me, and love it because it’s MUN and it’s what i do…Sunny does MUN, that ’s what she does…

I dread the results…..i hope there will not be ANOTHER DEPRESSION that will hit me HARD….i think i mastered the depression part pretty well. OH WOW i am nervous i am indeed

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