Sunny is Great

My brother is seven years old (he’ll be eight in June) and to me he is living such a wonderful life. Although he goes to few hakwons he still doesn’t have to worry about any of the things that suffocate me. Nevertheless, my brother thinks that life is hard. His two page English homework is just too much for him, and the fact that he cannot buy some kind of toy that he wants is unbelievably stressful. He cries and gets mad at so frivolous things that i cannot help myself from laughing when i see his grave face with tears after he realizes that he cannot play with his best friend. I envy him so much that i tell him that i envy him for being young like a habit. However, he sighs and nods his head whenever i tell him that. It turns out my brother’s life is harder than it seems to be to HIM.

But i can fully understand him because i thought that life was so complicated and hard when i was young too. Although, i would love to be just ten years younger now, at that time life was really tough for me. I couldn’t understand why i was not allowed to eat chocolate ice cream everyday, i couldn’t understand why i was not allowed to watch TV all day, and i couldn’t understand why i had to listen to my parents. As I grew older i realized how foolish i was, but then life was hard again. In about 4th grade friendship was so hard and important (of course i think it is important still) that small bickering with friends would make my life covered with a blanket of misery. I thought that elementary school was so boring and lame that i wanted to quickly become a middle school student. Gradually, i grew up, matured and once again realized how silly i was. When i was in middle school everything got really hard (as usual). I had so much work to do compared to when i was in elementary school. I also had a completely immature belief that i was mature and grown up. I had very very vague hints of thoughts, or rather day dreams of college and immense hopes for high school.

Now i am in high school, and i miss my past very much. Everything is stressful and frustrating in high school. Especially, these days, and today in specific, I am realizing the grim forecast of my immediate future, so i feel myself sinking sinking and sinking. Yet, i am telling myself that it is time to rise!!! because even though right now, at this moment i am suffering, soon i will be missing my today. So much more is waiting for me, and i know that the days in front of me will be tough. Yet, after all, life IS tough every second until the present becomes the past.

photos from: http://normaldesign.net/normal/en/show.php?product=28, http://ucdavismagazine.ucdavis.edu/issues/su07/future_power.html