Sunny is Great

I will not exaggerate at all.

Since this is a rather public blog..i cannot disclose my grades..but……

i think i can have a heart attack right now!!!!!

some might think that i am exaggerating, but ask sophia she knows the answer..

i do not wish to talk about my grades in my sacred blog..but the only thing that i can think about is my grade

and so…i have to spill the beans to not suffocate.

I honestly never thought that i would start my senior year like this.

I got sick, stayed in the hospital for about 10 days, and had to stay at home for recovery for about 2 days

i had to skip about 10 days of school days. I still could not and cannot function properly as the doctors told me that i will get tired and should not stress myself for about a month at most. I had an conference that i HAD to attend, which tired me out, and make many of the teacher angry……i fell asleep before nine every single day and i could not finish my homework or my make up work…..The result of this unfortunate course is devastating at best.

Many people including myself are telling me that i will be able to raise my grades somehow.

But, i don’t have time..:) i need to apply early..and i will need to submit my senior grades….and i HAVE to raise my grades before that……

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i think the situation overwhelmed me so much that i am quite senseless at this point.

i think i feel betrayed by the circumstances..

in korea..there is a saying: 공든 탑이 무너진다. Literally, this means the tower that you carefully built collapses, but of course the deeper meaning indicates that..whatever you were doing hard becomes futile.

I can fathom this saying 1000000% right now.

i don’t want to ruin my high school career just because of one quarter.

i guess i need to pull myself together..get healthier, happier, and better.