incredibly

Posted on May 25th, 2008 in Babble, I Will.., I did.., Regrets, Thoughts by 410sunny

i had an incredibly depressing and bumpy week

 

it was depressing at best and i was (perhaps am) about to have a melt down

 

i get easily stressed and the stress that i am feeling is on the verge of becoming dangerous

 

as a result i spent the most unproductive weekend ever

 

it is easy for me to just let go of things but before i let go of things

 

i go through painful processes

 

i may be a girl who gets stressed well and obsesses with petty things

 

but i believe that my obsessions are imporatan at least at this moment

 

what i am obsessing over can be directly connected to my future……..

 

i do not want my dream to be ruined

 

i am scared

 

i am really scared

 

i had a similar experience about 3 years ago but i understand that my current circumstances are worse

 

i do not know how to recover in a snap

 

i do not know what to do when why dreams are jeopardized

 

i know how to give up dreams

 

but that is the last thing i want to do

 

i need to snap out of this pathetic me

 

wake up

 

wake up

 

and face it

 

do whatever you can do to fix this

 

there are ups and downs in life and since i hit the bottom

 

it’s time to soar

 

yes, i am incredibly miserable but

 

no, i will not make my life itself miserable

 

and yes, i will make my life incredible from now on


photo credit:http://www.the-reel-mccoy.com/movies/2004/TheIncredibles.html

days of mess

Posted on May 18th, 2008 in Babble, I Will.., I did.., Regrets, Thoughts by 410sunny

days of mess passed by

i regret for not being able to be well prepared and i regret that i made a HUGE mistake while taking the world history exam. I do not want to blame everything on external forces but i really think that i am out of luck these days. From the SATs….and now my AP.

Stilllll…regardless of how grumpy i feel time passes  and things happen

now it is nearly the end of the year and i need to pump my energy up to raise my grades that DROPPED and i have to start being prepared to become a good senior

i don’t want to make a mess out of my senior year

i don’t wan to mess with the most important year of my high school career like i did..this year!

Still i want to make the best out of my junior year

and i want to have a wonderful senior year

no more messy days for me

just good good days should be and will be waiting for me